and even though it started out rainy and now it's all windy lou who all i see is sunshine and my friends,( saturday and sunday), just down the road on their way for their weekly visit.
tonight we will prepare for their arrival by putting up streamers and balloons and a welcome sign. maybe i'll bake them something so they'll be tempted to stay into next week.
WELCOME WELCOME WELCOME! i love you guys and holiday monday the very most.
- toasted ham and smoked gouda on rye
- pea soup
- sliced tomatoes with italian parsley (this part was just for me. jeremy only likes tomatoes for throwing at stand-up comedians).
don't you think sandwiches can make such a delightful meal?!? i love how the bread is like a dinner jacket for the things that go inside.
stephanie gerkins used to be part of a sandwich club and i remember thinking how cool that was when i first met her and we were in those early stages of friendship courting. or maybe i just wanted to be part of her club.
i was lured in under toasted western pretenses!
last night was the series finale and we always make a big deal about it and get champagne and cheers each other and say 'good run' and shake each others hands and blare the theme song really loudly and wave our arms around in the air. the last ten minutes or so of the last episode is always so intense knowing it's the last ten minutes of the last episode and that soon we will be saying goodbye to our imaginary tv vampire friends for another 9 months.
maybe we'll peer in at the living room couch from the kitchen like how parents look in at their kid's room when they've gone off to school. maybe we'll turn it into a weight room or a library or a music lounge.
i bet the stars would be amazing.
i bet you’d feel indescribably small.
and i bet it's impossible to find a place that would deliver you a pizza.
clearly someone is trying to sabotage my army of one.
i need to call a meeting! and then declare war!
i may have finally found something to distract me from the oh so tempting wake up jeremy game. although he did come out here once to see what i was doing cause i don't think i've ever entertained myself so early and for so long before.
it's a christmas miracle! in february!
step one: wear a nightgown that matches the colour of the icing you'll be making.
icing is really easy to make. it might even be easier to make than to purchase especially if you purchase it and use the self checkout aisle at the grocery store cause sometimes that is not so easy.
you can tell it's morning cause i have my morning face on. sometimes my morning face looks angry if it's a weekday but now it looks happy cause it's saturday and i'm decorating cake.
time to go show jeremy my work! i mean, time to wait patiently until he gets up and then show him!
for example drusilla is crazy and talks mostly in riddles and nonsense and spike is like a badass rockstar a la sid vicious and i can't count the number of times i've had to talk jeremy into putting down the bottle of peroxide.
they're madly in love, or just mad, but we totally identify with them. as much as one can identify with made up characters playing made up creatures. which, if you're us, is actually quite a bit.
and the sun is high up in the sky like it's the afternoon but like it's gonna be afternoon for hours to come yet. and the heat is washing over me and i can feel it in the dream, that real heat feeling when the sun is holding you down and warming you up from the inside out.
jeremy isn't with me, i'm sitting alone, but i'm thinking of him with me eyes closed and my smile on and my feet without shoes in the grass, and i'm wondering where he is.
i hope he's on the neighbours lawn in his own summertime dream and later on we'll meet up for a bbq.
is this a weird topic? i don’t think so, i find it comforting. i like to think of my life as a whole with a beginning and an end - a circle. it’s especially nice to talk with jeremy about it because he’ll be there with me through it all. from now until then and all the growy, wrinkly, shrinky ages in between.
i know these conversations seem a tad premature but also not. like it wouldn't surprise me to wake up tomorrow beside jeremy and we're 95. life seems to blink by so much quicker when you're holding hands with the one you'll share it with.
when we first got together we used to bake allll the time. really delectable stuff too like creme brulee and double fudge brownies and jer's (now famous) oatmeal chocolate chip cookies so it was a really thoughtful gift in memory of when we first started dating. HOW SWELL!
i love jeremy and his baked goods.
if a recipe called for two cups of jeremy i would make them 'rounded' cups not 'leveled' cups and i'd probably put in three cups even though it could potentially screw up the recipe.
ACK! EE-GAD! IT'S HORRIBLE! LOOK AWAY! ha ha just joking. it's not like i was mad at my old head or anything it just was time for a change.
i contemplated pouting for this 'before' picture but after practicing various frowns in the mirror i realized i don't know how to pout without putting my bottom teeth out which just makes me look angry.
my new hair this morning. STILL AT IT! see how it's kinda different but not really different but nice? basically i feel like someone's just turned the lights on upstairs and now my head's a more inviting place to be. come on over and pay it a visit! i know it can't wait to meet you.
yesterday we received two letters addressed to 'jennifer and jeremy' and it made me so happy partly because it wasn't a rogers bill but mostly because it seemed a formal thing, the two of us, addressed to 'we', me and he. i love him so tremendously.
at least you wouldn't have to miss any of your show if you went to the kitchen to fix yourself a snack, so that's one good thing.
A LAYER OF SUNNY YELLOW?! i don't even need to try it on! name your price!
CLOUD STREWN SKY RENDITION?! i'll take two! and one for a wall hanging!
BREEZE-BLOWN RUFFLES? oy oy oy, it's like fashion smut.
won't you be mine?
it has bacon inside the beef and bacon on top of the beef and cheese and sauteed onions and mushrooms and a special ingredient which is probably love because when i bit into the burger i loved it and i loved ryan for making it and i loved steph for making such a wise boyfriend/burger choice.
i love you delicious burger! even though i didn't finish you i hope you know it's only because i ate a pound of sushi as an appetizer. next time i will not pre-eat so i can eat you in your tasty tasty entirety as you so deserve.
et voila! looks just like real professional sushi eh?! jeremy cut it all nice on angles and stuff so basically between the two of us we can open a fancily cut vegetable roll sushi joint. screw layla! just kidding we'll mention her in the 'our story' section of the menu.
oh it's so much easier to hang out with babies when they can be in charge of holding their own heads up isn't it?! i think so. it's like if i'm going to pick you up and carry you around and make entertaining noises the least you can do is take responsibility for the weight of your noggin.
i think when i have a baby i'm going to carry it around in a bubble wrap sleeper so if i drop it i won't have to worry PLUS it will make that fun popping sound when it bounces around on the floor.