"...she's the most elusive and the most difficult to capture, and i was in her presence masses of times, but i'm left with a visceral impression, not a vocal one that i can communicate because she changed lives of anyone she knew back then with her shimmering presence. it is like taking something ineffible. you know, tinkerbell is always represented just by a light on stage and a little tympani in the orchestra. there's no person in there. it's just a little baby spot that goes around."