some thoughts on some things (assorted)

our bathroom had a little impromptu reno work done this week when the downstairs neighbours complained that our tub was leaking down into their apartment. what i say first to that complaint is HA that is your punishment for blasting red hot chili peppers every other night at 3 am and what i say second to that is i can hardly wait for us to have our own place and do our very own renovations.

i think it will be special to take something and make it into something else with our own hands. and plaster.

jeremy is really clever when it comes to fixing things and i think he'll be a natural renovator and i'll be a natural at telling him he's doing a good job and making him sandwiches and putting them into one of those tin construction worker lunch pails.

don't listen to the garbage that the michael jackson concerts have already sold out cause i have been mama se mama sa mama ma cu sa-ing since i could walk and i know the universe is going to throw me a bone here when i try to get general tickets on friday i can just FEEL it in my glittery socks.

lately i've really been thinking about what i want to do with my life. i mean i know i want to be with jeremy and make him happy and be a wife and one day a mom and be a good friend to my pals and a good sister and daughter and granddaughter and so on and what have you but i mean what do i want to DO. to contribute. to add to the world. and i know it's not sit at a desk all day and i know it's not spend a thousand hundred more dollars on school and i know it's something i can get behind morally and ethically and i know i want to always be mindful of my existence as part of the earth not separate from it and i know i want to be creative and expressive and i think for now, that's enough things to know.

so my new plan is to keep doing what i'm doing, filling my life with the things i love, having faith (in michael jackson tickets and other karmic finger pointings) and not stressing out about lacking a career plan. it will come. and if it doesn't, then i can always rent 'the secret' from blockbuster.

steph is leaving me for a terrific boy (i'll admit when i'm defeated) and though i'll be sad to see her go and sadder to know the distance between her and i will no longer be the underground path past the laundry room, i'm overwhelmed with happiness for her. you know when you're going along and you think you're living your life and then something else happens and your life REALLY begins? yeah that's her right now. and it's hard not to say DON'T GO and staple her to her adorable apartment floor but that's not what friendship is about. in truth it's about letting go. and knowing no one will be as cool as me in red rock.

has everyone tried these vitamin waters? they're good. my ballet teacher always has the lemonade one and i thought i'd try it cause she seems to know what she's doing most of the time and it's tasty! and has vitamins. and even if you don't know what you want to do with your life and your bathroom is being re-tiled and one of your best friends is moving to the north pole - at least you'll have one hell of an immune system.

xo